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more and more procrastination. as expected, and accounted for! (no, i don't care if my sentences end in propositions. this is a blog).

today started nicely, ie i slept in, missed class, was late for 140 and ended up waiting 30 minutes to park at underhill, then decided to skip it all together since the HVAC tour was half way through anyway. oh well. so then i got siqi to eat lunch with me; in exchange, i drew an interior perspective for her (but not the exterior!). alas, just when she is most busy, i have the most lunch with siqi! how ironic. but, we had some interesting conversations (our conversations always seem to lead to examinations of the human psyche and evaluations of character--we are destined to be employers!). it still troubles me, however, something she said a few days ago about a concealed racism amongst some her close (caucasian) friends. and again ironically, just a few days before, we were talking about and i was thinking about (1) asian hatred towards caucasian/asian relationships and (2) the (sometimes internalized) effeminization of asian men. this all agitates me so i will stop talking about it before i get really flustered (and if you are wondering about my opinion of such matters: (1) fuck off about mix raced relationships, there are bad and good ones probably proportional to the bad and good in same-race, and (2) yes, asian men are effeminized, but i still love them! so who the fuck cares? buck up and have some confidence, you don't need to ooze (physical) sex appeal; race regardless, charisma, intelligence, honesty, tenacity (determination&enthusiasm), and ideas are a hundredfold more sexy than a chiseled physique [even though it HELPS!]--and if you have all of this, even better!)

i left for kroeber and ran into a guy (a once architecture major here, '00, who left for peace corps and now lives in ny) named john who talked to me about the fire trail from the rugby field to lawrence hall of science, (one day i shall run this course!), and cafe fanny with great eggs (owned by the lady who owns chez panisse) on cedar and san pablo ("food is one of the things in life truly worth being passionate about"), and mused quietly about how sad it is that only when the rugby team loses do they get any attention (tears well in my eyes). he suggested i go to ecuador and peru now that my trip to china is cancelled. a very handsome, athletic, cultured, stylish man, with a mild british accent--but he talked so much about himself. its sad when you meet someone who appears to be a thoughtful person, but then you discover they have one irksome trait that makes you feel uncomfortable. oh well.

then i visited rick at casa z, which is a comfortable place with lots of matisse on the walls. i read some ambiguous&shady poems that make me want to look at rick from the corner of my eye and raise an eyebrow. (please, deconstruct&explicate!) but on the bright side, i now know how to play the picked section of "radio" by alkaline trio on the guitar. thanks, rick!

closing remarks: don't you just love it when the late day sun rises between clouds after it's rained--the world becomes so crisp and shimmering wet and the lines you never saw are there again. i would like to inhale some of that beauty. these are just a few things that piqued my interest for a bit today. now i need to get some WORK ACCOMPLISHED!