mintcar

"I will always remember these times."

The paradigm shift has perhaps reached its full revolution, and so I am culminating to a point where pieces of my scatterbrain existence are being pulled together by a renewed sense of place. It's like things have, on their own natural course, have recalibrated ... and surely, the boulder-rolling-down-a-steep-hill past few months' events have begun to slow down as I have stabilized the very plane on which it travels. Sigh. What the hell am I talking about? :) 100B done, and I am 21 today. I saw my family today, my best friends, my boyfriend, and even recalled a prayer I said to God about something I might or might not have prayed for. But, I am ... I am.

Still alive. What a wonderful sense it is. A spark around which swirls the endless, beautiful seconds, and the spaces between atoms.

I'm getting better from the cold I had (though still a bit snotty). I have increased "love receptors," I think, because I'm finding so many gorgeous things in this world again ... after having been rather bitter for about half a year. It's regeneration, recuperation, and re-scrambling to get things done ... to be active, and discover hidden possibilities.

I'm so lucky.