mintcar

Now that I think about it, I haven't felt pain so frequently since I was a kiddy kid. Do I need to kill these nerve endings or what? Have you ever had a recurring image or thought that no matter when or what you were doing, if it flashed through your head, you would physically hurt? Like your heartrate jumps, you tense, and get a sick fear in the pit of your stomach?

Like you are afraid of letting go, but you are afraid of hanging on, as well?

Even if you were close in person to someone, you felt lightyears distant? Like you were on another plane of existence? A completely different mode of thinking? And that distance made you feel pitifully sad, because there isn't supposed to be any distance, if things were "right?"

What the fuck is right?


PS I think one of my guppies is gay; he keeps chasing after the other boys!