mintcar

So I think there might have been another fickle change of plans! I will most likely be going to Italy right after graduation with my roommate, the Squeeky Ma, and then possibly get with some hot Italian stallions. Just kidding. Or I might not be ....

So life is not too shabby right now, except for the tiffs and spats (and brawls lived out in my mind) with a certain bad attitude boy, whom I shall call "Pita," which really really really pisses me off. Besides these moments, hours of misery, I try desperately to think of sunny things like cleaning my room, ED 100 with Professor Roy, and Busby Berkeley films. I would love to go into art criticism or at least have exciting debates and discussions with some like-minded elitist art freaks. I think one of the best aesthetic periods has been the 1900s-1930s Futurism, Lempicka kind of deco, and 1980s minimalism. What the mass commonly knows as the aesthetic of conspicuous consumerism + machine age 1920s is probably my all time favorite.

For some reason, I feel like current design and art is too eclectic. I hate that it's defined by its "undefinability." What kind of bullshit is that? There is always some kind of dominant strain, that, without being contrived, you can trace through lots of the crap that's being produced out there. I think calling it post post modern is lame, and it just allows a lot of shit to slip into the avant-garde category. Not that I'm an elitist or anything.

Speaking of which, I had a conversation a few days back with someone who told me it's ridiculous for people who aren't 'members' of the elite to call themselves elitist (namely, me). That's true; I'm by no means a 'elite.' I happen to be an unpublished, unrecognized college parvenu nonentity who doesn't deserve the right to self-label. Well, I can fucking label myself anything I fucking please, whether it's "farouche," "oppressed," "unambitious," etc. Your normative injections just demonstrate your own capricious intolerances and general ignorance. Jerk.

Yeah, so I am an elitist. Not cuz I'm a Republican, not cuz I'm ethnocentric, not cuz I've fallen into hollow intellectualism, but because I believe there is a vanguard of thought and standard of dedication that deserves to be upheld and fought for. So I guess I'm a little militaristic that way.

Plus, sometimes I just hate being a female in this cock-led world. I'm sick of vying for the right kind of attention that I deserve as a worthwhile person, not a piece of ass. I don't give a shit how hot you are, what you have, or who you know; you are the type of people who deserve to be shot and killed. So back off all you ignorant assfucks.

PS. Good work on your new blog, ben.